I have come to grips with the fact that I (as a human being) can not fly. I can not dunk, I can not keep plants alive, and I can not bench press a truck. These things I am pretty ok with, (other than the plant thing I really wish I had a green thumb) however, realizing our limitations is not something many of us particularly enjoy.
What do you mean I can’t be a blonde? What do you mean I’m not flexible enough to do crow position? I’m too big? Too small? Wait, what are you saying? What do you mean by ‘didn’t get the job’? How can I change your mind? What if I just work really really hard? You don’t think I have the time right now? No! I am a really great multitasker, I swear.
Accepting our fate is no easy task, we beg, barter, and steal… we aren’t all destined to do everything we dream… but how do you respond?
I am a ‘yes’ person. Someone asks for help, I say “sure! absolutely, how can I be of service?” Someone needs something done I say “when do you need it?”, a favor, a project, a job, cramming my brain with infinite tasks that I am constantly trying to keep track of because, lets be honest, I am the worst at writing ‘to-do’ lists. Saying no feels like bitch slapping someone…across the face…with a brick.
Here is the problem. I am perfectly able to accomplish everything I set out to do (most of the time), but I am like 8 arms, 72 hours in a day, and a magic wand short of it all actually happening. Therefore I am left feeling the pressure, stressed and cracking, trying to squeeze every last drop of myself into these various tasks, projects, and ideas. Without having a source to glean from, to be refilled, I end up disappointing people (one of my worst fears), letting them down and not achieving what I set out to do to the caliber I set to do it at. I reached my limit four ‘no problems’ ago… so what do I do?
I need to get stern right? Start saying no? For me, this is far easier said than done, so I am working on a three step program to help my neurosis.
Step one- Figure out what I really want to do
Step two- Place a value on my time
Step three- Realize my limitations and pursue only the things I feel drawn to
Ok, there. I have rules… or maybe rather guide lines, now if I can just stick to them…
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