While sipping tea the other evening (I know, I'm like a million... or british... maybe both) a friend and I (who is actually british) lost our selves in thought over dreams of the future. It was a magical bliss filled half hour full of 'what if' and wonder. Time slipped past as our imaginations went wild, creating a future far bigger, far bolder, than our (rational) minds normally allow.
The next day, as I thought back on that conversation, I was filled with absolute panic. What if those dreams come true? What if I get hurt in the process!? What if I'm not the right woman for the job and people are let down and disappointed in me! I think I would die of utter shame. Drew, thank god, was there to bring me back, reminding me that, "we can't know... that's the job babe... living in the not knowing" (thanks Don Draper* for that nugget of wisdom! Don left off the 'babe' bit... but if he were real and called me 'babe' I think I would die of sheer joy). Oddly enough, I recently gave that same advice to another friend as encouragement on her career. Apparently when it comes to myself I am not as rational (SHOCKER).
The thing of it is, at the end of the day I can't know but I CAN go forward with confidence in knowing that if I fall I will get back up (if Destinies Child taught me anything it's that I gotta get back up and try again... ya know?!). I am excited and terrified... but as Olivia Pope would say, "I can feel it in my gut... and my gut is never wrong".
What fears are you facing? How do you deal with the great unknown? I would love your input on this one you guys, I'm officially out of my depth (and couldn't be happier about it).
xx
*Sorry I'm not sorry for all the pop culture references... I couldn't help myself. Also those writer know their stuff, maybe I should talk to them...
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